The pathway to success is often unseen. No one cares, and no one will understand you, but should they. I don't care what race, religion, creed, disability, or whatever you are, if you're not a fit you're not a fit. Nothing will change that. If you have personal problems, talk to a therapist. Otherwise you will open yourself up to be a target of gossip. Which can tarnish your public image. The hard reality is that you gotta go through a bunch of shitty circumstances before you can live a life of comfort. That means shitty jobs, shitty partners, shitty friends, and shitty business dealings. I know it's hard, but keep your head up. Don't try to make the world conform to you. Find your crevice in society and settle down.